It feels like your heart just sank, shivers run up your body, you feel a rush of tears, you hear your heart race, your palms sweat, you hear a buzz in your head like you’re blank. That’s when you know, your heart just broke.

As a child you look at the world in bright colours, you see the good in every situation and the only time you ever cried was because you scraped your knee or because you wanted your mom and dad. Little did we know the harsh reality that comes with age, I see more black and blue, I cry even more than I should, I want to cry for my mom and dad but not because I miss them.

The truth is, we always wanna believe that things get better with time but sometimes more damage takes place in time, I wanna wake up one day and hear birds chirping and admire the blue skies, I wanna wake up one day and know my parents still love each other, but that’s a night sleep away, there’s no birds but loud screams and devious whispers, my skies are filled with black clouds and I’m scared to wake up in a house where a broken family now lives.